God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not meant to be,
So he put his arms around you
and whispered "Come to Me".
With tearful eyes your friends watched you,
as they saw you pass away.
Although they loved you deeply,
They could not make you stay.
Your Golden Heart stopped beating,
hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He only takes the best.
- Therese & Ivana
God Bless His Soul. Rest In Peace Afham. Al-fatihah.
Lots of love,
Ivana
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
How did he leave us
As I believe there were a lot of people asking how did arwah passed away. He passed away in an accident. He was riding his scooter. I'm afraid to say anything here because, I have three or so different stories. So I don't wanna say anything yet till I get the real one. basically, as all people heard, he was riding his scooter to buy Pepsi. He told that he's craving for Pepsi. It was around 11 pm. He decided to go and buy at 7Eleven I suppose with his school friend, Ayie. Where is he from and which 7E that he went to, I don't know. Some sources told me his from his house but he still went to 7E near Wangsa Melawati, and he was from his friend house.
Too bad Ayie's in hospital right now, he's suffering a coma. I suppose he is the only one who knew what had really happened. And there's a tree, whether he accidentally hit it or he was flew over and hit the tree or he was bumped into his friend and hit the tree or he hit the road divider and bang to the tree.
So far as I heard, the tree, Pepsi, scooter and his friend Ayie does really exist. Maybe he did speed up. Some said he did wearing a helmet, some exclaimed don't. He didn't died in an extremely scary tragic way. Maybe the impact was hard enough. Clearly it is not rempit. After all, his face and other parts of his body was still fine. What to do, ajal maut semua di tangan Tuhan. Allah dah tetap kan dia pergi dgn cara macam tu. Kita sebagai manusia lain, redha dan berdoa je lah. Sedekah kan Fatihah dan Yasin kepada arwah. His brother told others that arwah had beeen super nice that day. He even salam with his mum before he went out. And He did told his friends "aku nak kena balik cepat" What did he meant, we don't know. Maybe he just felt something wrong. Usually, they'll know and get this kind of feeling, based on my experienced.
A few minutes ago, I was laughing because there was this one boy which clearly I dont have any idea who it was, I just saw his comment somewhere. He said that "kalau tulis je, tak baca buat apa. Tak di tujukan kepada siapa2" or something like that, I can't really remember the actual word. Maaf ye tuan menulisnya if I got it wrong. He was saying about this "Al Fatihah thingy." It is true for me, he did said the right thing and yeah, ini tidak ditujukan kepada siapa2. No offense.
Anyways, I even heard that arwah try to get up for like 3 times but he couldn't make it. He even meraung kesakitan. but I don't know whether this is true or not. The saddest part.. The Pepsi that he bought is still there with him. Tak sempat nak minum. Hmm, that's what I've heard. I'm just telling what I know. So please no offense or anything. I'm sorry if what I heard is wrong and the story is the other way around. You can't blame me because I'm far miles away apart and just barely heard people's story. If I was there, I would have confirmed the real story. I would even ask Cik Polis for real. A bunch of apologize.
Zulaikha.
Too bad Ayie's in hospital right now, he's suffering a coma. I suppose he is the only one who knew what had really happened. And there's a tree, whether he accidentally hit it or he was flew over and hit the tree or he was bumped into his friend and hit the tree or he hit the road divider and bang to the tree.
So far as I heard, the tree, Pepsi, scooter and his friend Ayie does really exist. Maybe he did speed up. Some said he did wearing a helmet, some exclaimed don't. He didn't died in an extremely scary tragic way. Maybe the impact was hard enough. Clearly it is not rempit. After all, his face and other parts of his body was still fine. What to do, ajal maut semua di tangan Tuhan. Allah dah tetap kan dia pergi dgn cara macam tu. Kita sebagai manusia lain, redha dan berdoa je lah. Sedekah kan Fatihah dan Yasin kepada arwah. His brother told others that arwah had beeen super nice that day. He even salam with his mum before he went out. And He did told his friends "aku nak kena balik cepat" What did he meant, we don't know. Maybe he just felt something wrong. Usually, they'll know and get this kind of feeling, based on my experienced.
A few minutes ago, I was laughing because there was this one boy which clearly I dont have any idea who it was, I just saw his comment somewhere. He said that "kalau tulis je, tak baca buat apa. Tak di tujukan kepada siapa2" or something like that, I can't really remember the actual word. Maaf ye tuan menulisnya if I got it wrong. He was saying about this "Al Fatihah thingy." It is true for me, he did said the right thing and yeah, ini tidak ditujukan kepada siapa2. No offense.
Anyways, I even heard that arwah try to get up for like 3 times but he couldn't make it. He even meraung kesakitan. but I don't know whether this is true or not. The saddest part.. The Pepsi that he bought is still there with him. Tak sempat nak minum. Hmm, that's what I've heard. I'm just telling what I know. So please no offense or anything. I'm sorry if what I heard is wrong and the story is the other way around. You can't blame me because I'm far miles away apart and just barely heard people's story. If I was there, I would have confirmed the real story. I would even ask Cik Polis for real. A bunch of apologize.
Zulaikha.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
The Moment
It was at 1 o'clock in the morning when I received a text message from Danial, he texted "wehh??!!!daa tido??!!" The way he wrote it seems like there was something wrong.. I can tell from those question marks and punctuation marks that he wrote. I replied "blom , asal doh ?" He replied within 2 seconds telling "apam mungkin meninggal" I was in shocked. I couldn't even believe what I'm seeing. I called Adi, to make sure of it. He started to cry and told me it is true.. It was so hard for me to accept. I can't believe this such thing. My own best friend died??! It just like, impossible for me.
I started to tell everyone about this shocking news. No one believes me, everyone thought it was a stupid jock or a prank text message. because, nobody has ever expected this thing, losing a great friend?? He's gone from this world?? It just hard.. The next morning when I woke up, I immediately, told my mother the news. She knew apam since 2006. Plus, my mum and apam's mum were friends. Even my sister is best friend with his sister. Then I called my father to ask for his help to send me over there, Apam's house.
We got there around 10 something. I met Fitri, Danial and others. We all thought his 'jenazah' will go to the house first but, he was sent directly to the mosque near the cemetery. Fitri, Danial and I went to the mosque with Mowk's or Firdaus's sister. When we get there, there were a lot of cars and people. We all waited the 'van jenazah' for quite long. All people go surround the van to get Him. His family members and some of 'orang masjid' helped with 'mandi mayat' and 'kapan kan'. Danial and I stood right next to the door where he was 'kapankan'. I was shaking and scared. I kept saying to Danial, that I don't wanna look at arwah's face. I just can't... Danial told me this is the last time to see his face, we won't get this chance anymore. It's the last time to see his face. It is true, this is the last chance.
Suddenly, a man was calling for arwah's family to take a look at arwah's first. I got a pick of arwah's kain kapan, I felt so scared during the time. Arwah's was brought in. The man, opened the cloth that covers the face to let all his family members, relatives, and his friends to look arwah's face for the last time for a couple of minutes. When I saw arwah's face, I started to cry, I couldn't help it. I still can't accept it. It's too early for him to go. His too young, just sixteen years old.. All the people in the room, was crying. We all love him. All his friends were there except for those who couldn't make it or still haven't heard the news.
Arwah's face was fine, he looked calm. The accident doesn't gives effect on his face. Alhamdulillah.Arwah's family and some of his friends helped carrying him inside the mosque. I had the chance too. We performed Zuhur's and Jenazah's prayer and went to tanah perkuburan. Masjid's man brought jenazah to finished the pengebumian. The faster, the better. They put slowly, nicely and carefully in the place. Two of arwah's older brother, helped. Imam started to recite doa' right after they done. We all went back after the doa and 'talkin' finished.
It was a long and sad day for me, so does to everyone else. This is the first time in my life I really lost a friend, a best friend. We will never forget you Apam.. Sedekah kan lah segulung Al Fatihah kepada arwah dan mintak2 lah roh nya akan di cucuri oleh rahmat Allah dan ditempatkan di kalangan kalangan orang yg soleh dan beriman. Amin~
A true friend
I started to tell everyone about this shocking news. No one believes me, everyone thought it was a stupid jock or a prank text message. because, nobody has ever expected this thing, losing a great friend?? He's gone from this world?? It just hard.. The next morning when I woke up, I immediately, told my mother the news. She knew apam since 2006. Plus, my mum and apam's mum were friends. Even my sister is best friend with his sister. Then I called my father to ask for his help to send me over there, Apam's house.
We got there around 10 something. I met Fitri, Danial and others. We all thought his 'jenazah' will go to the house first but, he was sent directly to the mosque near the cemetery. Fitri, Danial and I went to the mosque with Mowk's or Firdaus's sister. When we get there, there were a lot of cars and people. We all waited the 'van jenazah' for quite long. All people go surround the van to get Him. His family members and some of 'orang masjid' helped with 'mandi mayat' and 'kapan kan'. Danial and I stood right next to the door where he was 'kapankan'. I was shaking and scared. I kept saying to Danial, that I don't wanna look at arwah's face. I just can't... Danial told me this is the last time to see his face, we won't get this chance anymore. It's the last time to see his face. It is true, this is the last chance.
Suddenly, a man was calling for arwah's family to take a look at arwah's first. I got a pick of arwah's kain kapan, I felt so scared during the time. Arwah's was brought in. The man, opened the cloth that covers the face to let all his family members, relatives, and his friends to look arwah's face for the last time for a couple of minutes. When I saw arwah's face, I started to cry, I couldn't help it. I still can't accept it. It's too early for him to go. His too young, just sixteen years old.. All the people in the room, was crying. We all love him. All his friends were there except for those who couldn't make it or still haven't heard the news.
Arwah's face was fine, he looked calm. The accident doesn't gives effect on his face. Alhamdulillah.Arwah's family and some of his friends helped carrying him inside the mosque. I had the chance too. We performed Zuhur's and Jenazah's prayer and went to tanah perkuburan. Masjid's man brought jenazah to finished the pengebumian. The faster, the better. They put slowly, nicely and carefully in the place. Two of arwah's older brother, helped. Imam started to recite doa' right after they done. We all went back after the doa and 'talkin' finished.
It was a long and sad day for me, so does to everyone else. This is the first time in my life I really lost a friend, a best friend. We will never forget you Apam.. Sedekah kan lah segulung Al Fatihah kepada arwah dan mintak2 lah roh nya akan di cucuri oleh rahmat Allah dan ditempatkan di kalangan kalangan orang yg soleh dan beriman. Amin~
A true friend
11/2/93 - 8/06/09
Huzaifah,
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
The heal to our pain & sadness
We, as one of arwah's close friends, huzaifah and I, have came out with this idea - to make one special blog for him to all his friends or even family to say or let it out their feelings or memories and such things. This blog meant nothing and has nothing to do with the death and alive, it just for in memory of him and to heal our pain and sadness towards our mighty friend, Arwah Afham Akhimullah bin Matkhir.
We all have never been expecting for this tragic thing would ever happened to anyone of us. It just hit our feelings like boom! He's gone forever from this world within a second. The day, the minute and second have all been written since he was born to this world. HE has fated for him, this is the best for him. We, should take this with patient and a strong heart. He has returned to HIS side, rahmatullah. That is the fact that we should face and convince our self every day we woke up. There is no more Apam, Akim or we used to called him Matkhir.
We can't blame HIM for took him away from us. After all, WE all belong to HIM. HE is the one who gives us the heartbeat, and HE is the one who can take it anytime HE wants. HE just lend it to us. We should use it wisely. I know, it does takes time to take the reality. It just seems like we were dreaming. It just seems like everybody was joking. We just met him a few days back. We just heard him laughing his ass off. It seems like he just smiled to us a few hours ago.. He just text-ed you guys, he just called you guys or maybe he just told 'see you later'. but he left us before we could meet him in this world. He's gone from this world forever. It's really really hard for those whose close to him.
He has been an amazing guy to us, I won't forget all his memories with me. It just so beautiful. There's no words that can describe how beautiful and lucky we are, we had a chance to be apart in his life. And I am sure he thanked us too. He is lucky, indeed; to have friends like us. We can't undo what has been done. We can't make the death back alive even tho we cry our lungs out. He's much more happier there. I am sure he is calmer there.
It just feels like yesterday, since; he pinched my cheek. I wont forget the shaped and palm of his hand, his finger that has touched mine, his wavy hair flowed sideways, his dimple curved on his adorable chubby cheek. His puppy dog eyes that makes me melt like an ice cream when it hits the hot bright sun. His favorite color, his favorite food and his favorite dream vespa. The beautiful tune when he plays the guitar. His hand gently picking the string. His voice rings in head. His sweat when he hold my hands. His warmth when he hold me tightly. His haunted lips that keep smiling. His sincerity loving me. His hand written when he wrote me letters and cards. His necklace that I would keep forever. His email in my inbox. His room that brights in blue. His baby kicked when we had dinner together with his mum. His kindness and sacrifices he did. His red faces when his blushing. His massive adorable, cutest baby picture. His likeness when he messing around with me. His ego that I'll tolerate no matter what. His baby face that shine my life. His fears and hopes. His laugh that refresh my day. Way too much to describe him. He has been perfect to me. He is like the hot bright shiny sun to me. And now without him in this world, is like a night time. Dark and dull, company with the oh-so-bright-moon. You're just too sweet.
I will always pray for you Apam. I have faith in you that you'll do great. There's less sin for you in this world. I will always and always and always remember you, every single little thing about you. I am so sorry I can't make it to your funeral because of the distance . I can't see you for the last time before you went in there alone and forever. but I promise you, I'll go and visit you once I'm back in Malaysia. That is the first thing I will do. I still love you tho you're gone.
Thanks for letting me being apart in your life. I do appreciated it so muchhhhh! You are the love of my life, indeed; you have been the greatest friend and boyfriend ever to me! Rest in peace in your eternal life. June 8th 2009 is your day. Who knows, maybe tomorrow or today is my day. It's all in HIS hand. We can't do nothing other than trust confidently towards HIM. We will meet someday, the day will come when we all will be together. You just went faster than us because you will wait us there. That's it till now. I have more words to say than these really. I will always recite Yasin and Fatihah to you. These will be your company down there :')
some of our pictures together.
Sincerely from deep of my heart,
Siti Zulaikha.
We all have never been expecting for this tragic thing would ever happened to anyone of us. It just hit our feelings like boom! He's gone forever from this world within a second. The day, the minute and second have all been written since he was born to this world. HE has fated for him, this is the best for him. We, should take this with patient and a strong heart. He has returned to HIS side, rahmatullah. That is the fact that we should face and convince our self every day we woke up. There is no more Apam, Akim or we used to called him Matkhir.
We can't blame HIM for took him away from us. After all, WE all belong to HIM. HE is the one who gives us the heartbeat, and HE is the one who can take it anytime HE wants. HE just lend it to us. We should use it wisely. I know, it does takes time to take the reality. It just seems like we were dreaming. It just seems like everybody was joking. We just met him a few days back. We just heard him laughing his ass off. It seems like he just smiled to us a few hours ago.. He just text-ed you guys, he just called you guys or maybe he just told 'see you later'. but he left us before we could meet him in this world. He's gone from this world forever. It's really really hard for those whose close to him.
He has been an amazing guy to us, I won't forget all his memories with me. It just so beautiful. There's no words that can describe how beautiful and lucky we are, we had a chance to be apart in his life. And I am sure he thanked us too. He is lucky, indeed; to have friends like us. We can't undo what has been done. We can't make the death back alive even tho we cry our lungs out. He's much more happier there. I am sure he is calmer there.
It just feels like yesterday, since; he pinched my cheek. I wont forget the shaped and palm of his hand, his finger that has touched mine, his wavy hair flowed sideways, his dimple curved on his adorable chubby cheek. His puppy dog eyes that makes me melt like an ice cream when it hits the hot bright sun. His favorite color, his favorite food and his favorite dream vespa. The beautiful tune when he plays the guitar. His hand gently picking the string. His voice rings in head. His sweat when he hold my hands. His warmth when he hold me tightly. His haunted lips that keep smiling. His sincerity loving me. His hand written when he wrote me letters and cards. His necklace that I would keep forever. His email in my inbox. His room that brights in blue. His baby kicked when we had dinner together with his mum. His kindness and sacrifices he did. His red faces when his blushing. His massive adorable, cutest baby picture. His likeness when he messing around with me. His ego that I'll tolerate no matter what. His baby face that shine my life. His fears and hopes. His laugh that refresh my day. Way too much to describe him. He has been perfect to me. He is like the hot bright shiny sun to me. And now without him in this world, is like a night time. Dark and dull, company with the oh-so-bright-moon. You're just too sweet.
I will always pray for you Apam. I have faith in you that you'll do great. There's less sin for you in this world. I will always and always and always remember you, every single little thing about you. I am so sorry I can't make it to your funeral because of the distance . I can't see you for the last time before you went in there alone and forever. but I promise you, I'll go and visit you once I'm back in Malaysia. That is the first thing I will do. I still love you tho you're gone.
Thanks for letting me being apart in your life. I do appreciated it so muchhhhh! You are the love of my life, indeed; you have been the greatest friend and boyfriend ever to me! Rest in peace in your eternal life. June 8th 2009 is your day. Who knows, maybe tomorrow or today is my day. It's all in HIS hand. We can't do nothing other than trust confidently towards HIM. We will meet someday, the day will come when we all will be together. You just went faster than us because you will wait us there. That's it till now. I have more words to say than these really. I will always recite Yasin and Fatihah to you. These will be your company down there :')
some of our pictures together.
Sincerely from deep of my heart,
Siti Zulaikha.
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